Okay, so I've been absent for a while and I don't really have an excuse, other than to say that there's been a lot going on.
I was struggling with a significant weight gain that was causing me to restrict to less than 100 calories a day. Even on so little, I would still gain.
Wednesday 26 April 2017
Monday 3 April 2017
What the hell is going on?
So, recently I made a post about how my weight had gone up 1.7kg in five days. Well, since then, it's gone up more and more. In the past 12 days I have gone up 4kg.
I have been restricting like mad. I'm barely eating or drinking and I just.... I don't know. I'm scared and sad and confused and angry and I don't know why the fuck this is happening. This is my highest weight in a very long time.
I don't have an appointment with my therapist, L, until next Thursday, don't have a doctor's appointment until next Thursday either (Thursday's a busy day, huh!) and I cannot cope. I'm feeling so dangerous right now.
Please, please, dear God, let the weight go down. I don't know what's happening to my body.
I have been restricting like mad. I'm barely eating or drinking and I just.... I don't know. I'm scared and sad and confused and angry and I don't know why the fuck this is happening. This is my highest weight in a very long time.
I don't have an appointment with my therapist, L, until next Thursday, don't have a doctor's appointment until next Thursday either (Thursday's a busy day, huh!) and I cannot cope. I'm feeling so dangerous right now.
Please, please, dear God, let the weight go down. I don't know what's happening to my body.
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