I broke my purge-free streak

I had made it 9 days. 9 days without purging, and I was feeling very good about it.

But something about my dinner today made the choice between continuing on with the streak of purging all too easy a decision.

Now, physically, I am exhausted. I am drained and I've got a headache, and I look pretty damn awful. Emotionally, too, I'm impacted. I feel like I betrayed my therapist and my boyfriend and myself.

I know that this is a normal part of 'recovery,' but god, if it doesn't suck.